Sunday, April 4, 2010

It's a New Season

As I have journeyed this lonely, painful, road of grief and suffering; it has not been in vain. My life is forever changed. I could have resisted the change, but it would have made me go around in circles, only making my journey that much longer. I am convinced that my embrace to change and surrender to a sovereign, loving Father is getting me through this season. Personally, I can’t believe I have endured such hardship… What? Yes! Hardship! It’s un-American! I always seem to confine Christ to my idealistic views, only to find out that my ideology is not even Biblical. Don’t get me wrong, God does not desire to punish and hurt his children. Yet, he does desire for me to remain faithful to him no matter what I face, knowing he is trustworthy.

I have learned so much about Eileen without Roosevelt. I was forced to confront who I really am and what I am really made of. Many times it was easier for me to crawl under a rock and hide, even from my two little treasures, Trinity and Israel. Forgive me, you tried to contact me on Facebook and Twitter, but quite frankly I was too busy waiting upon the Lord. In the next few weeks I will be traveling to a solitary place for a personal retreat. I have remained hidden, because I am asking God to renew my strength. It is necessary for me to go to the mountain top in my quest for the Lord.

Isaiah 40:31

31 But those who wait for the Lord [who expect, look for, and hope in Him] shall change and renew their strength and power; they shall lift their wings and mount up [close to God] as eagles [mount up to the sun]; they shall run and not be weary, they shall walk and not faint or become tired- AMP

To renew: (verb) give somebody or something new energy; replace something used up; make something new again (Encarta Dictionary)

This April 10th marks the eighth month of my widowhood. Eight signifies the number of new beginning. New! I like that word. My life is re- NEW-ed!!! I have so much life ahead of me! My sneakers are on and I will be ready to run! God has remained faithful. You are all so dear to me. Thank you for praying for us!

Trinity has accompanied me as I spoke at Pastor George and Phyllis Sawyer’s Church in Decatur, AL. Trinity and Israel will be traveling with me, as I am preaching a Mother’s Day message at Dr. Mike and Darla Rakes church in Winston- Salem, N.C. Thank you, we could not have come through this season without. Roosevelt was there for you and now you have been here for us! We love and appreciate you!


  1. "Wait upon the wind" by Jason Upton on the cd Jacobs Dream. Grace and peace, Eileen.

  2. I love you Eileen! Praying that you are blessed and comforted during your personal retreat.